[ And this is why he is a Corsair despite his desire to do good. G'raha does a great deal of rule breaking after all. And he is willing to do the same for others. ]
I believe so too. At the very least they could let you go supervised.
Imagine why. I was a little prince that was too sickly to go anywhere on my own. According to my mother, anyway.
[That is why Joshua would rather be free to do what he wants. After years of being coddled and not allowed to play with his brother. He hates being supervised and told what to do.
Seeing you as you are and knowing full well how determined a person you are... Doubtful you were ever that sickly. Though perhaps I am biased, as I value inner strength just as much as I do physical.
[ But yes he does understand how it might make a parent feel. ]
[He'll spare G'raha the information that he has held Phoenix's power since the day he was born, so he has also held the curse along with it. Although, G'raha's words do give him some comfort.]
Thank you, G'raha. That is kind of you to say.
[All he wanted to do was play with his brother and yet... His mother never allowed him to do that.]
What I wouldn't have done to swing swords around with the other boys, yes. I didn't think I was too sickly for that. And in this case, I do hope to get some fresh air sooner than later.
I do not say it out of kindness, but merely how it all appears to me.
[ G'raha assumes that all of those who are to be a Dominant are born with the ability. How long it sleeps within the individual is likely varied. ]
Though I can relate on some level. I never truly got to play overly much with the children where I was born. After being sent to Sharlayan, it became all about academics. Even while doing fieldwork, I was often scolded as I was supposed to be "an observer only."
Seeing you in person does bring me some ease, even if the questions I would ask might... Be a bit of a touchy subject. If you are not up for them, feel free to chase me out.
[ Since, naturally, it has to do with Joshua's condition and how he managed to even bring himself to this state. ]
[ Raha chuckles. He appreciates Joshua more than the other likely knows. ]
You owe me nothing, my friend. I am satiating my own personal curiosity. [ Partially untrue. ] I would ask you questions about your... Guest, as you are aware.
[ G'raha tries his best for those that he cares about. Joshua has become one of those people. A true friend indeed.
He does what he can to not make a face at the dark mark, knowing full well what it is. What it means. Instead, he raises his hand over it as soon as it is exposed. ]
My friend, I truly hope that there is a means for you to escape this. Truly, a start without you in it would just not be as bright.
[It's always bittersweet to hear people say things like that to him. When he has been so ready to die to make this problem vanish all together. But he's thought many times over now that maybe he shouldn't think he has to die as a last resort.]
Whatever comes of this, I will make it through.
[Please help him by patching up his seals. It helps.]
Even worse, I fear. I am a romance novel enthusiast.
[ A chuckle. Then he begins the process of working on that seal. Perhaps pouring a bit of his own aether in there to further alleviate some of the symptoms. To bolster what cannot be an infinite supply. ]
I know what it feels like, to be torn between hope that you never wanted to hold close and desiring to be pragmatic.
[Joshua gives a gentle chuckle. Another thing in common between the two of them. Romance novels.
As the magic begins, Joshua can feel the relief almost immediately. It's like taking an instant painkiller or a medicine that opens up his lungs. He can finally breathe easier, for the moment.]
Thank you, my friend. For your understanding, as well.
[It does make him feel less alone in his decisions.]
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[ And this is why he is a Corsair despite his desire to do good. G'raha does a great deal of rule breaking after all. And he is willing to do the same for others. ]
I believe so too. At the very least they could let you go supervised.
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I'm not sure if I wish that either. I've been supervised most of my life.
[Let him be freeeeee.]
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[ Responsible? Reckless, is really the word that G'raha would use. Who ever would think to use themselves to contain an immortal entity?
...Aside from himself, if needed of course. ]
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Imagine why. I was a little prince that was too sickly to go anywhere on my own. According to my mother, anyway.
[That is why Joshua would rather be free to do what he wants. After years of being coddled and not allowed to play with his brother. He hates being supervised and told what to do.
And yes. He's reckless.]
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[ But yes he does understand how it might make a parent feel. ]
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Thank you, G'raha. That is kind of you to say.
[All he wanted to do was play with his brother and yet... His mother never allowed him to do that.]
What I wouldn't have done to swing swords around with the other boys, yes. I didn't think I was too sickly for that. And in this case, I do hope to get some fresh air sooner than later.
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[ G'raha assumes that all of those who are to be a Dominant are born with the ability. How long it sleeps within the individual is likely varied. ]
Though I can relate on some level. I never truly got to play overly much with the children where I was born. After being sent to Sharlayan, it became all about academics. Even while doing fieldwork, I was often scolded as I was supposed to be "an observer only."
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Perhaps that is the route of our relentlessly adventurous sides.
[All work and no play... Has made them stubborn. Let the curious nerds out.]
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Yes, I suppose that this side of us developed due to those circumstances. In truth, I was wondering how you were faring.
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I am faring better than it looks, I do promise that.
[Phoenix's healing is doing wonders.]
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[ Since, naturally, it has to do with Joshua's condition and how he managed to even bring himself to this state. ]
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[Joshua looks at G'raha and nods.]
I suppose I do owe a friend some answers. Please ask what you wish and I'll do my best to answer what I can.
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You owe me nothing, my friend. I am satiating my own personal curiosity. [ Partially untrue. ] I would ask you questions about your... Guest, as you are aware.
[ G'raha looks towards the door. ]
What were the conditions to ensure confinement?
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The strength of my Eikon and of my aether. While I may be weaker at the moment, my guest is locked away tightly once again.
[And he thinks... That he cannot afford to let Ultima almost escape a second time.]
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[ His smile is kind. Fond. Also a bit empathetic. To contain a being such as Ultima - from what he has heard - would take no small amount of aether. ]
Though I suppose that means no wards, spells, or seals are in place?
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[Joshua once again gives another weak but determined (and stubborn) smile.]
Although, I do recall you using your own magic to reinforce my seals once. Would you care to help a friend once again?
[One can never be to careful, after all.]
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I will be glad to offer my aid to a dear friend, whenever he should call upon me to do so.
[ His chin points towards Joshua's chest. Asking the other to expose the inky blotch, the prison of his friend's enemy. ]
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[Joshua nods quietly. In all his life, he has not had the time or opportunity to make many true friends. He is glad to call G'raha one of them.
With that, he reaches up to gently tug away some of his bandages, revealing the dark mark.]
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He does what he can to not make a face at the dark mark, knowing full well what it is. What it means. Instead, he raises his hand over it as soon as it is exposed. ]
My friend, I truly hope that there is a means for you to escape this. Truly, a start without you in it would just not be as bright.
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I wasn't aware you were a poet as well, G'raha.
[It's always bittersweet to hear people say things like that to him. When he has been so ready to die to make this problem vanish all together. But he's thought many times over now that maybe he shouldn't think he has to die as a last resort.]
Whatever comes of this, I will make it through.
[Please help him by patching up his seals. It helps.]
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[ A chuckle. Then he begins the process of working on that seal. Perhaps pouring a bit of his own aether in there to further alleviate some of the symptoms. To bolster what cannot be an infinite supply. ]
I know what it feels like, to be torn between hope that you never wanted to hold close and desiring to be pragmatic.
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As the magic begins, Joshua can feel the relief almost immediately. It's like taking an instant painkiller or a medicine that opens up his lungs. He can finally breathe easier, for the moment.]
Thank you, my friend. For your understanding, as well.
[It does make him feel less alone in his decisions.]