[ His response is not automatic either, if only because he's often busy with one thing or another during the day and sometimes he waits until night to read his shellphone device. He's always happy to see a missive from Joshua however. ]
Dear Joshua,
You have nothing to apologise for, naturally I cannot expect you to respond immediately nor would I. As we are not in the same room, I am certain you have your own activities going on, as do I. I will admit that I usually don't look at this thing until I'm back in my room at night, preparing for rest.
I would very much like to share another dance with you. It was a very delightful diversion and you are certainly worthy of the praise. I don't think it's necessarily about the talent of a person, or the experience, but as long as it's enjoyable I think that merits my remarks. I had a pleasant time.
There is a small grace, in that being summoned doesn't force priming. I have told the young lady with the ability to potentially bring me to her side that she absolutely must do so if she is in peril and her life is on the line. Inconvenient that may be to me, but I would much rather her survive at my inconvenience than face her death. Especially since priming is not required.
I know it is not proper to discuss this with you through text alone, I certainly owe you better, but my relationship with priming at the moment is tentative at best. Lest you hear it from Cid, but I am afflicted with the curse. That is probably not unique, but the symptoms I have have not changed since arriving here, unlike his assumption that the curse was gone. I cannot say for certain if that is the case, or if it is progressing slower, perhaps it is stopped altogether.
I hadn't any intention on sharing that with him either, but the conversation turned that way and I felt it important to be candid about the situation, because if it is still a factor he should know that. Everyone should, I suppose. I merely don't wish to raise concerns for my health when it is not something that can be altered. However, I have been avoiding priming as much as possible, in the hopes to delay the progression. That isn't something I could've done in Sanbreque of course, but here for the most part, my dragoon skills have been more than enough.
My apologies for the unsolicited tangent, Joshua.
I am uncertain. I appreciate the invitation, and that we are all tied by fate by Greagor's will of course, but aside from my connection to you I have not been so fortunately connected to the others, and I'm not certain why they would wish to be. Most of us share the same burden and yet we have consistently been pit against each other and faced each other in battle and forgiveness is not so easy. Not for me, certainly and probably not for them.
Although I will admit I should stop teasing Cid. I suppose he's earned that much.
I admit you are making a very enticing offer as I too wish to spend more time with you. It would certainly give us more time to talk. I feel as though we get so little of it with everything going on.
Do you think these things can be overcome, or perhaps, I am reading too much into things with my concerns? If it's just me then perhaps I need to spend time letting go of our pasts, difficult that may be.
I just don't wish to make things worse, nor do I wish to make people uncomfortable. I know in my current state that I am not terribly the best company to have around. Perhaps his invitation would be rescinded if he thought he could.
I realize looking over what I've written that I have perhaps said too much...and yet I will selfishly send it all the same and just apologise. Please do not hesitate to tell me if it is too much Joshua. You are my dearest friend and perhaps I have been stewing on my thoughts a little too intensely.
I do hope you'll write me back, and I long to see you again.
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Dear Joshua,
You have nothing to apologise for, naturally I cannot expect you to respond immediately nor would I. As we are not in the same room, I am certain you have your own activities going on, as do I. I will admit that I usually don't look at this thing until I'm back in my room at night, preparing for rest.
I would very much like to share another dance with you. It was a very delightful diversion and you are certainly worthy of the praise. I don't think it's necessarily about the talent of a person, or the experience, but as long as it's enjoyable I think that merits my remarks. I had a pleasant time.
There is a small grace, in that being summoned doesn't force priming. I have told the young lady with the ability to potentially bring me to her side that she absolutely must do so if she is in peril and her life is on the line. Inconvenient that may be to me, but I would much rather her survive at my inconvenience than face her death. Especially since priming is not required.
I know it is not proper to discuss this with you through text alone, I certainly owe you better, but my relationship with priming at the moment is tentative at best. Lest you hear it from Cid, but I am afflicted with the curse. That is probably not unique, but the symptoms I have have not changed since arriving here, unlike his assumption that the curse was gone. I cannot say for certain if that is the case, or if it is progressing slower, perhaps it is stopped altogether.
I hadn't any intention on sharing that with him either, but the conversation turned that way and I felt it important to be candid about the situation, because if it is still a factor he should know that. Everyone should, I suppose. I merely don't wish to raise concerns for my health when it is not something that can be altered. However, I have been avoiding priming as much as possible, in the hopes to delay the progression. That isn't something I could've done in Sanbreque of course, but here for the most part, my dragoon skills have been more than enough.
My apologies for the unsolicited tangent, Joshua.
I am uncertain. I appreciate the invitation, and that we are all tied by fate by Greagor's will of course, but aside from my connection to you I have not been so fortunately connected to the others, and I'm not certain why they would wish to be. Most of us share the same burden and yet we have consistently been pit against each other and faced each other in battle and forgiveness is not so easy. Not for me, certainly and probably not for them.
Although I will admit I should stop teasing Cid. I suppose he's earned that much.
I admit you are making a very enticing offer as I too wish to spend more time with you. It would certainly give us more time to talk. I feel as though we get so little of it with everything going on.
Do you think these things can be overcome, or perhaps, I am reading too much into things with my concerns? If it's just me then perhaps I need to spend time letting go of our pasts, difficult that may be.
I just don't wish to make things worse, nor do I wish to make people uncomfortable. I know in my current state that I am not terribly the best company to have around. Perhaps his invitation would be rescinded if he thought he could.
I realize looking over what I've written that I have perhaps said too much...and yet I will selfishly send it all the same and just apologise. Please do not hesitate to tell me if it is too much Joshua. You are my dearest friend and perhaps I have been stewing on my thoughts a little too intensely.
I do hope you'll write me back, and I long to see you again.
Dion